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was_no_monster) wrote2012-09-08 07:19 pm
was_no_monster) wrote2012-09-08 07:19 pm
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baby's first trip to the doctor c:
[modern medicine is amazing.
the first time his idiocy had cost him his pulse, it had taken him months of fading in and out of conciousness as his heart slowly healed enough to beat, and another of miserable illness as his pulse washed all the rot that had settled into his flesh out into his bloodstream. not to mention how weak he'd been after, and how long it had taken to regain his strength.
it's only been a week, though, and while he's still weak and fighting off several nasty infections at least he's conscious. and clearheaded. true, they had to get a machine to pump his blood for him to get him that far, but he will damn well take that and the hospital stay over the alternative of taking a slow, painful year to heal.
...even if being awake does mean being bored almost to tears.]
the first time his idiocy had cost him his pulse, it had taken him months of fading in and out of conciousness as his heart slowly healed enough to beat, and another of miserable illness as his pulse washed all the rot that had settled into his flesh out into his bloodstream. not to mention how weak he'd been after, and how long it had taken to regain his strength.
it's only been a week, though, and while he's still weak and fighting off several nasty infections at least he's conscious. and clearheaded. true, they had to get a machine to pump his blood for him to get him that far, but he will damn well take that and the hospital stay over the alternative of taking a slow, painful year to heal.
...even if being awake does mean being bored almost to tears.]
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If it is any comfort, I am trained to fight. And though I've never truly killed a human before, I have had cause to slay things that wore human faces... Better me forced to make that decision than another, less trained than I.
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But better still were it made by someone who already had blood on their hands.
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But it did, and it is done. And all things considered, I do not regret saving your life even at such a price.
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And at the risk of sounding callous... I am glad the price was paid. Those people... They were mad, and the reason we came to blows in the first place was because they thought any who wouldn't or couldn't be happy should be put to death in the most painful ways imaginable. If they intended to enforce their opinions...
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[making an angry, disgusted sort of noise]
My sister had more heart than they did, even before she had been properly given one.
[he hasn't been able to stop wondering: what would they have done to her, as she had been? he's met other versions of her; what if another who still had no heart came, and was in the wrong place at the wrong time, and...]
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...Two, actually. One I adopted here, but the other... My father made her, too, but in a very different manner.
He's primarily... a tinkerer, I suppose you would call him. He builds and repairs automata. Rin, my sister, is essentially a very advanced clockwork doll who can think and act for herself— but she initially couldn't feel. She had no "heart" until about a year ago... but what a heart it is now.
She's a good girl.
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... I can see that you care a great deal for your family.
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[...blushing, very slightly]
...Mmm. They're... my redemption, in a way. ... Father was the one who fought with me over what I thought I was, over and over and over again, until I was willing to accept that I had been wrong. And Rin... well. It's very difficult to argue with a small, innocent child over why you might not be all that they see in you. It's far easier to just accept it, and change to match.
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... You are a good man. I see that now.
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...Aah, I don't know about that. I try, though.
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... Though, I hope you will forgive me if it is still... difficult for me.
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No, I understand completely. ...It's not something I'm comfortable with, either, and I used to grieve over it before I knew my... donors had pledged their remains in good will.
[...looking down at his hands. he won't be able to play piano for months, most likely...
he'd taken poor care of what he'd been left, hadn't he?]
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...Ah. It's not uncommon where I come from for people to make it clear that they want their bodies to be used towards good purposes, should they die— either having what they leave behind given to those who study medicine, so that new things might be learned to help others; or so that what once served them well can be given to those whose own bodies are ailing, and might otherwise not have a chance to live.
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I... I had no idea. That isn't... it isn't done where I come from.
All this time, I had thought that your creator must have stolen from the grave...
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...No. To be truthful, he might have found other ways to obtain what was needed if we hadn't a system like that in place— but I have no doubt he would still have asked the families first, at the very least.
He may be odd—one has to be, to dabble in what he has—but he is a good man.
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There's no need. If anything, I would say we're both even as far as mistaken assumptions go.
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I was little more than that when we met, it was hardly an inaccurate assessment.
Though I begin to suspect myself less a tool of God than of men pretending to speak for Him.
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You would be far from the first.