HOOKERY POST THE FOURTH

[was_no_monster]

by which I mean Court continuations! Curse you, captcha.

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[was_no_monster]

I know. ...Without the additional pressure, that's not what makes it uncomfortable.

[levelheadless]

What is, then?

[was_no_monster]

[ goes quiet... ]

...I grew up among humans while unable to pass as one of them, with- with a condition caused by how I was made that causes me to feel ill if I look at myself for too long. ...I'm working on it, but it's still hard to hear things that conflict with the impression that left without feeling like I'm being lied to.

[levelheadless]

So if people find you attractive, it feels like mockery?

[was_no_monster]

Or pity. Yes.

[levelheadless]

[starts stroking his hair]

You know I'm not human.

[was_no_monster]

[ yes please. sighing through his nose and basically melting ]

I doubt I'd be able to talk about it as easily if you weren't.

[levelheadless]

I really don't know how humans see you. But you seem pretty attractive to me.

[was_no_monster]

[ reaches back to grab Rille's hand by the wrist and tug it forward to cover his face ]

[levelheadless]

[absolutely no hesitation with that; although most people treat the face as a kind of low-touch personal area, he, uh, doesn't have that problem.

[rubbing his thumb over Kaito's cheekbone, curling his fingers against his cheek] Here's better?

[was_no_monster]

—ah.

[ tilting his head to push back against that, almost exactly like a cat would. he even makes the same sort of ridiculous scrunched up squinty face. ]

I didn't actually... intend that, I was just flustered, but. Yes.

[levelheadless]

You put my hand here by accident?

[running his thumb down the bridge of his nose. With his head up out of the way and blocked by the edge of his pillow he can't really see, but he's used to working by feel]

[was_no_monster]

I was covering my face...

[ doesn't even try for the Extremely Dignified tone, just sounds sheepish. and pleased. his nose is definitely scrunched up, but his eyebrows aren't furrowed ]

[levelheadless]

Well, my hand's here now. Do you want it gone?

[rubs that thumb up between his unfurrowed brows]

[was_no_monster]

[ huff. shifting his grip on Rille's wrist because yes, he did just leave his hand there ]

No—

[ aaand that sudden silence is the sound of a man metaphorically walking face-first into an objective ]

[levelheadless]

Kaito? I can't see you, what is it?

[strokes his fingers down the side of Kaito's cheek]

[was_no_monster]

[ his breathing actually stutters before he forces himself to breathe evenly ]

...Sorry. I set off an objective.

[levelheadless]

Should I stop?

[was_no_monster]

... Give me a minute?

[levelheadless]

[flops onto his back, shuffling over]

[was_no_monster]

[ slides off of his legs and just. lies there, face pressed into the mattress. why ]

[levelheadless]

[folds his hands on his stomach, waiting patiently]

[was_no_monster]

[ sulks like that for about a minute, then huffs and lifts his head ]

Mnnf. I think I'm all right.

[levelheadless]

Did it upset you?

[was_no_monster]

No, I'm only embarrassed. That could have been better timed.